Who is dreaming the butterfly
Zhuangzi wakes up from being a butterfly and does not rush to sort out which one he is.
By Sovandarapor (James) Kong · · Nondual
Chapter 05 of 12 in The masters were funny
Zhuangzi dreams he is a butterfly, doing butterfly things, with no memory of being a man. Then he wakes up and he is unmistakably Zhuangzi, and he says he does not know whether he is a man who dreamt he was a butterfly, or a butterfly now dreaming he is a man.
The passage is about two thousand three hundred years old and it fits in a paragraph.
What keeps it a good joke and out of stoner territory is what Zhuangzi does next, which is nothing. He builds no system on it. He notes that between the two there must be some distinction, he calls that the transformation of things, and the chapter ends there.
Inside the dream the butterfly had no doubts. It was fully a butterfly, complete, with a butterfly's certainty. So certainty about what you are is the thing a dream supplies. It is the cheapest thing in the room. Right now the sense of being this specific person, with this history, in this chair, is generating the same total conviction that the butterfly had.
Everyone who tells this story loves the vertigo of it. I am more interested in what does not move, and Zhuangzi does not say this, to be fair to him. He is Daoist, not Vedantin, and the passage is happy to leave you unsteady. I am borrowing it, which is what everybody does with this story.
There was a butterfly's world and there is a man's world, and something was awake for both. It was not the butterfly and it is not Zhuangzi. It did not gain a memory of the wings or lose anything when they went.